Ever since November came to an end, I've hovered in this weird netherworld of having endless, fleeting ideas and yet feeling completely unable to write. Because Time Is Fake™, I don't actually remember if I've felt exactly the same way the other uhhh (looks at scribbled notes) three thousand times that I've done NaNoWriMo, but it does feel incredibly familiar.
I'll just be sitting on the tram home, or on the sofa after dinner, and suddenly there'll be a spark in my brain, something like - and this is basically a direct quote from my brain - "okay, how about, like....Terminator 2, but Terminator fucks!", and for about half an hour I'll become incredibly excited by this new idea until the spark fizzles out in a wet pffft and I find myself staring out into space and eventually firing up another game of Hearthstone.
Honestly I think I'm just tired. November tired me out. I'm preemptively tired out by the holidays. The thing is, when writing works, when I'm in the flow, there's nothing that makes me feel more energized. So of course my brain is reaching for that flow, that inspiration. I dig through old ideas that didn't reach fruition, searching for something that'll break past the tiredness, even when what I really need to do is the dishes, or writing cards, or cleaning out the rat cage. Because that's effort without flow, and without the sweet, sweet rewards of a story blossoming under my hands. I might get a clean rat cage out of it, but I'm not going to get Fucky Terminator and the Conflicted Young Man Who Loves Him.
The best thing to do? Probably write down all those random ideas, and pick them up again once I've had a bit of rest, and started work on editing The Assistant. Just in case those shiny new ideas are just my brain's diabolical mechanism to keep me from the less glamorous work of editing.
Of course, there is such a thing as multi-tasking...
Well, despite a minor flare-up of my RSI, I did it - fifty thousand entire words in a month. Not the fastest I've ever written, but thanks to pacing, mechanical keyboards, a lot of coffee, my extremely understanding boyfriend and a lot of ready meals, I managed to get more in the swing of things, writing-wise, than I have been for...well, years! After a bit of a break, it'll be time to start editing - and then we'll see what happens with The Assistant. I'm mega excited for you guys to read it!
It's the third day of National Novel Writing Month, and I'm already starting to feel the strain. It used to be easy for me to write 2,000 words a day. Well, let me rephrase: it used to be easier. These days it feels more like work, less like pure pleasure. Don't get me wrong, it's the kind of work that leaves me satisfied. So writing isn't always a downhill journey for me. So sometimes it's an uphill climb. The view from the top, though? Hell, that'll always be worth it.
To celebrate 5000 hard-won words, here's an excerpt of The Assistant, where Nick Kurosawa first meets his future employer, Jacob Umber. I hope you enjoy it!
Before I vanish in the writing hole for a month, I thought I'd leave a treat for any Halloween visitors: Forest of Glass is once again available!
So National Novel Writing Month is starting tomorrow at midnight. Pretty much the moment I get back from my Halloween party, I'll be firing up Scrivener and getting to work on this bad boy:
When he starts craving more, it seems an impossible complication, but even the reserved Umber can't deny Nick's talent—and need—for following his orders. But Umber's shadowy past holds secrets that could undo both their fragile new relationship, and any hope Nick has of a normal life.
As it is NaNoWriMo, some of this stuff might end up changing! But I am going into it with a fairly good idea of Nick and Umber as people, and the kind of trouble they might run into. As the month goes on, I'll be posting a few first-drafty excerpts to enjoy...or just to get a look in to my writing process. And, as it is NaNoWriMo, you'll probably also get a fair amount of griping!
Happy Halloween, and see you on the flipside. 🎃
Well, I finally bit the bullet and got a nice new website set up - just in time for NaNoWriMo!
I've participated in National Novel Writing Month before, but in the last few years, life always managed to get in the way a bit, and I haven't gotten past the finish line in a while. This year, I'm hoping it'll be different. I have a new, fantastic day job that gives me more headspace to write, and an interesting idea that I hope will carry me through. For the first time since I can remember, it's an idea that falls outside my familiar speculative fiction wheelhouse! It's exciting and a bit daunting to write in (some version of) the "real world" rather than the far-flung worlds of The Adorned or A Stranger In Skoria, worlds that seem somehow more familiar to me as a writer than my own hometown.
If you're a fellow NaNo-er, come check out my profile and say hi!